Geeky Nerd Case #01

It's feeling good for me to have a person to observed, trying to explain the unexplained behavior.

And it's more interesting that the person I observed is no other than myself.

The past myself, to be specific.

So, what's interesting here? As time comes and I gained more age, I found answer for my unexplained (to be frankly, embarrassing) behavior. Since I was an introvert, I personally love to keep my question alone.

Ok, back to topic. Before that, let's name my-old-myself as Mr. W

Mr. W is not a popular guy at high school. Crappy hair style, round eyeglass, and totally nerd. Lack of friend and self confidence, lead Mr. W into an introvert, socially withdrawal person. The thing he loves is game, anime & manga, and girl. For the last is totally difficult to get, due to his unattractiveness. Well, who want to date a geeky nerd?  

Every need comes with compensation. You hungry, then you eat. Wishing a girlfriend but there no one who wants to be, that is problem. So, this condition leads Mr. W's unconsciousness to develop an ego defense mechanism toward his unattractiveness. He trying to overcompensate his lacking, by build an imaginary self image, like having a superpower—let's say like some kind of demon eyes.

Nowadays, I found this symptom as kind of mild personality disorder. Pixiv Encyclopedia stated this condition as Chuunibyou (中二病) literally translated as "Middle-school 2nd Year Syndrome" under Evil Eye/ Jyakigan Kei (邪気眼系) type, with definition as following:

"Admires mystical powers and thinks that he or she has a hidden power within them as well. It is with this trait that he or she creates an alias specifically for said power. This is also known as the delusional type."

It's normal to have these symptoms in adolescence. But trust me, as long we have a strong will to change ourselves, we always can change to be better person. What I said in here is not instant change (think of Super Saiya or something else), but a progressive change—a process. See, learn, and open your mind. It's hard to be an adolescent, but trust me, it's more hard to be an adult.


Cheers!


References:
allpsych.com/psychology101/def…
en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Defence_…
en.dic.pixiv.net/a/Chuunibyou